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Hey, I need opinions and advice. I'm 5'7" and 18 years old. I start college in the fall, and I think I'm anorexic. Here's my story; you decide.

I didn't eat for six days straight, and I purged this weekend. Tomorrow I have no desire to eat. I was 127 pounds. I want to be at most 120 pounds. I will stop at nothing to get there. I think I'm fat, but more than that, I like being in control. This is about the only thing I can control in my life, and I love it. The emptiness in my stomach is comfort.

I'm constantly checking my weight on the scale and lifting my shirt to see if there's any show of ribs or hipbone. I want to be able to see my ribs. I tell myself, 'Nothing taste as good as thin feels,' and I believe it. I looked up on the Internet the effects of anorexia; it said thinning hair, dry skin, and missed periods. I have all three symptoms.

I used to weigh 144 pounds. I have many more pounds to lose, by the end of this month. So tell me, what do you think? Thanks for listening.

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	~~Crystal~~	02-Aug-07

You know just eating food isent going to make you fat. Its what you eat. Food gives you energy and nurtrients and are bodies have to have it. If you dont eat anything then your not doing nothing but hurting yourself. Theres other ways of loseing weght then starving yourself and thats not the way to go. Anerexic is where it makes you belieave that your fat and that you have to lose weight but you really dont. Its the way you see yourself but its not the way you really look or the way other people see you. You might want to talk to someone or get before its to late and you start getting real bad health problems.

	sara	12-Jul-07

i cant it. i need to be thin. i want to see bones. thin=beauty. im already hooked on that. i dont know how else to achieve it. and not only that. but this is how i can control something. i get to decide how much i eat or dont eat. its my choice. and noone elses. but im starting to get worried. my legs get really numb faster. and when i stand i get head rushes like im about to pass out. its weird. but im still gona stay true to dropping the weight fast. i have to.

	kerry	12-Jul-07

Yeah, I'm going to be extremely hypocritical right now, but I think you need to stop. From personal experience (as you saw in my article), seriously, try to stop. You don't want the health problems I have - or at least I don't want them. So unless you don't care about your health, you might want/need to stop.